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Neither Wolf nor Dog: On Forgotten Roads with an Indian Elder
By Kent Nerburn (2002)
May Wakan Tanka bless you.
The pain and shame continue unabated……
Review: May 20 2008
This book is based on Kent Nerburn's fluctuating and at times tortured friendship with an 80 year old Lakota man named Dan. Dan has led a long life of adversity on the reservation while striving to preserve his people’s culture and customs in the face of interminable culture shock and haunting memories of the history of racism, genocide and cultural devastation against his people. Refreshingly, Dan and Nerburn quickly dispense with historical myths and focus on where Indians stand in the present, with modern social problems combined with a need to understand a history far more painful and destructive than even the most sympathetic White Americans have written about or could imagine. Nerburn has difficulty avoiding sentimental cultural ruminations and Dan is not always a person you can warm up to - but this all works to the book's advantage because both are revealed as complex human beings with credible strengths and weaknesses. The story occasionally becomes unnerving as Dan delivers hard-hitting soliloquies on the continuing differences in the worldviews and cultural mores of the two peoples. Dan’s outlook on matters of history and culture can be highly illuminating, as are Nerburn's struggles to understand without becoming the type of exploitative writer that old Dan loathes. In the end, this is an extremely thought-provoking book and is essential for anyone interested in understanding the psyche and culture of Native Americans – of yesterday and today.
It’s a hard hitting book that pulls no punches, and takes no prisoners; don't read it if you are looking for confirmation of your pre-conceived notions about Native Americans shaped by the self-righteous self-serving fabrications of Hollywood Westerns and literature of the past 80 years or facile New Age spiritual enlightenment by way of the native Indian. This book has the inimitable quality of making you laugh out loud on one page and weeping on the next.
I’ve read scores of books about Native Americans in
recent years, but few have touched me as deeply as this one and none has
enhanced my understanding of the plight of the contemporary native Indian as has
Old Dan refuses to whitewash the historical clash between Euro-American Christian whites and his people. Nerburn comes with certain expectations and idealism that is shattered by Dan's refusal to be written off as just another victimized Native American guru. The author becomes the brunt of many jokes as he travels down dusty roads with Dan and his sidekick Grover, sees reservation life and as his own biases and built in ethnocentric prejudices are exposed. With his unique teaching strategy Dan reminds us of the Zen and Sufi masters who are always trying to clear the deck and take us beyond conventional thinking and dogmatism.
Nerburn uses the Old Man Dan’s narrative to help explain the workings of the mind of many Native Americans and how they perceive the Christian capitalist white society's dealings with race, possessions, private property, the environment, history, family, social interactions and dynamics, the work place and many other aspects of the dominant culture. In almost every instance the Native American zeitgeist is antithetical to the Western European and American contemporary world view. This I think is the most constructive and insightful message of the book and from which I gained the most perspective. In sometimes complex, but often quite simple terms, the Old Man offers commentary on the roots of our value system, which, after reading his description of our culture, seems very self-centered, ignorant, destructive, arrogant, self-righteous and at some times, preposterous – even laughable. The dichotomy between the two cultures helps to bridge a gap between our two very different, yet forever entangled cultures which we are still struggling to unravel.
Some passages from Dan the Lakota elder in Neither Wolf nor Dog:
"But then these strangers shot animals just to kill them. They left them lying in gullies. They made paths through the lands that were heavier than our paths. These people became like a river through the land.
"We had never seen the kind of things they did. For us, the earth was alive. To move a stone was to change her. To kill an animal was to take from her. There had to be respect. We saw no respect from these people. They chopped down trees and left animals lay where they were shot. They made loud noises. They seemed like wild people. They were heavy on the land and they were loud. We could hear their wagon wheels groaning in the next valley.
"We tried to stay out of their way. But they made us angry. They made hunting hard for us. They took food from our children's mouths. We did not want them around. Still, they were on small paths and we were free. We tried to leave them alone, except for the young men who were most angry.
"And we did want their rifles.
"Then something strange happened. These new people started asking us for the land. We did not know what to say. How could they ask for the land? They wanted to give us money for the land. They would give us money for the land if their people could live on it.
"You remember a few years ago? Some Indians decided they would rather be called Native Americans. It's an okay name; it's more dignified than 'Indians.' But it's no more real than Indians, because to us this isn't even America. The word America came from some Italian who came over here after Columbus. Why should we care if we're called Native Americans when the name ii from some Italian?
"It's like if someone took over this country now and called I. say, Greenland, and then they said that those of us who were already here are going to be called Native Greenlanders. And they said they were doing this out of respect. Would you feel respected? Would you care a whole hell of a lot if they called you that or something else?
So you talk right away, before you even know what you are going to say.
"Our elders told us this was the best way to deal with white people. Be silent until they get nervous, then they will start talking. They will keep talking, and if you stay silent, they will say too much. Then you will be able to see into their hearts and know what they really mean. Then you will know what to do."
"I imagine it works," I said. I knew full well it did; my students had used the same trick on me, and it had taken me months to catch on.
"It works, all right," the old man said. "But it causes problems, too. I remember as a little boy in school. When the teacher would call on me I would sometimes want to think about my answer. She would get nervous and tap her ruler on the desk. Then she'd get angry at me and ask me if maybe I didn't hear her or if the cat got my tongue.
"How was I supposed to think up my answer when I could see her getting upset and nervous and knew that the longer I waited the worse it would be? I'd end up saying one word or, 'I don't know.' I'd say anything to get her away from me. Pretty soon they said I was stupid.
"I remember one teacher telling me I needed to learn how to think. She really didn't care about my thinking. She just wanted me to talk. She thought talking meant thinking. She was never going to be happy unless I started talking the second she called on me. And the longer I talked, the happier she would be. It didn't even matter what I said. I was just supposed to talk.
“That’s what all white people see. You drive through our reservations and say, ‘Look at all the junk cars and all that trash.’ What do you think we say when we drive through your cities?”
"We say the same thing. Just because you have everything scrubbed down and in order doesn't mean anything. What is bigger trash, a junk car or a parking ramp? We can tow the junk car away. The parking ramp has to be torn down with bulldozers and wrecking cranes. The only reason you don't see it as trash is that you still use it. When you don't need a building anymore, or it is too expensive to fix, then it is trash. To us it looks like trash all the time.
"If Fatback lives in my car, is it trash? To you it is because it isn't being used the way you want it to be. If a car is new and shiny and goes down the road, then you say it isn't trash. If it is old and can't go, then it is trash. It really isn't any different on the earth whether it moves or not. You just think it is. When it comes time for the earth to take it back, it is going to be just as much trash as the car sitting in my yard." (My note: Fatback is Dan’s old dog)
"Still, it wouldn't take anything to clean it up."
"Maybe we're still using it. That was the Indian way. Use every part of the buffalo. Make ropes from its hair. Make drumsticks from its tail. Some of these people are making one car out of a lot of them. I'm making a dog house out of mine."
This was the closest I had ever come to a confrontation with Dan. Usually, I had just acceded to his point of view. This time I wanted to challenge him to see where it would lead.
"Junk cars aren't buffalo carcasses."
"Bullshit!" he exploded. "I'll tell you what is bullshit! White people's attitude toward possessions is bullshit!”
That's no reason to get something, just because it's new. Your way teaches people to want, want, want. What you have is no good. What you don't have is new and better.
"From the first you are told, 'This is mine, this is yours'; 'Don't touch that, it doesn't belong to you.' You are taught to keep away from things because of ownership, not because of respect. In the old days we never had locks on our doors. There was no stealing, but if someone was hungry, they could go in your house and get food. That was all. Why didn't people take things? Because of respect.
"You build fences around your yards and pay money for people to measure the ground to tell you if your neighbor's fence is one inch too close to your house. You give nothing away unless you can get something in return. Everything is economic.
"Your most powerful people don't even hide their thinking on this. If you ask for something, they don't ask whether you need it; they say, 'What's in it for me?
"I'm afraid that's America, Dan," I said.
He hammered the air with his gnarled fist.
"I know it. And a lot of our people have started to act like that, too. Not all, but enough. This kills the old Indian way, where everything was shared. We believed that everything was a gift, and that a good man or woman shared those gifts. Next to bravery, generosity was the most important.
"Now we have been turned around. We think that good people should be rewarded, just like the white man thinks. Can't you see how much better it was when good people thought they should give, not that they should get? (pp. 75-77)
"You can tell me you don't think that way, but you do. I look at the history books of the kids. They start in the east and come west, all of them, like that is the way history happened.
"Just think what that does to our kids. It tells them to see the past like white people. It teaches them to understand this country like they were on those boats and covered wagons. That's not the way it was to us. For us, this was a big land where people lived everywhere. Then some people came and landed on the shores in the east while others came up from the south. They started pushing us. Then some others came down the rivers from the north. All these people were fighting each other. They all wanted something from us — furs, land, gold. They either took it or made us sell it to them. They all had guns. They all killed us if we didn't believe that God was some man named Jesus who had lived in a desert across the sea. They wouldn't leave us alone.
"Pretty soon they set up a government way back somewhere in the east and said this all was their land. Not just where they lived, but everywhere they had been or even where they had heard of. If they could get one man to go to a place and put a flag in the ground, they said they owned everything between where they started and that flag. They started pushing us backward on top of each other. All of us who had lived side by side leaving each other alone had to fight each other for hunting land. (p. 164)
"The trouble is not the alcohol," Dan continued. "The alcohol is a challenge to make us strong. The trouble is the way we have let it make us into victims."
"Everyone's a victim in America these days," I said. "It's our new national pastime."
"It's a bunch of shit," said Dan with uncharacteristic vehemence. "That's the white man's way. When your life isn't going right, you blame your parents or your work or something else. You talk about being burned out. You spend all kinds of money j to have psychiatrists tell you why you aren't responsible for your life.
"We don't need that. It's not our way. We don't need some social worker or government professor to tell us what's wrong. We need to look to the Great Spirit for strength."
"Great Spirit needs help, sometimes," Grover said.
"Not by a bunch of damn social workers and counselors. Hell, if it wasn't for us, social workers would be out of business. The whole reservation economy is based on weakness."
He glanced over at the table of white men. Dan's volume and vehemence had piqued their interest again. They feigned concern with their sweet rolls and coffee, but you could see the bills of their caps turning toward us when Dan's voice rose.
"It really makes me angry when I see how white people have turned us into victims. I see hundreds of my people getting in line every day to be victims, blaming society or the white man for all their troubles."
"Well, there's some truth in that, isn't there?" I asked.
"Sure there is. But it's a bad truth. Being a victim is weak. I don't want to be weak. I want to be strong, like my grandfathers. (p. 180)
"You see, we could always read the signs. We still can today. You may not be coming with guns and diseases, but you are coming. Instead of alcohol and tobacco, you are bringing money. You don't want our land. You want what is under our land and on our land. You want our minerals. You want our forests. You want to bury nuclear waste and chemicals.
"Ha!" he burst out suddenly, as if his words were only the tip of his thoughts. "But we have learned to be clever. We know that the only thing you really fear is lawyers, because lawyers are the ones who can twist your law. Once, long ago, we believed in the power of your law. But then we saw that you didn't believe in it. It was only for you and it really was only to help you get what you want or to keep others from getting what you have. It never applied to people like us.
"We signed treaty after treaty. We got promises after promises. What did it get us? Nothing. It just lulled us to sleep because it made us trust you. And while we were sleeping you were finding ways to twist that law to get what you wanted.
"Those presidents. I've thought about this a lot. Let's take those two guys."
"What two guys?"
"The two guys I'm talking about. Jesus and Abraham Lincoln."
I thought perhaps he had lost all grip on reality. "You're not talking about them, Dan. You must be thinking about them. I think the heat's got you."
He pushed on, undeterred. "Those missionaries come around the reservation. Three, four ladies in a car, all dressed up. They come out and try to talk to you about Jesus. Now, Jesus has been dead for a lot of years. Why do they come and try to talk to us about Jesus?"
He was on the trail again. All I could do was go along. At least the ghost of his son did not hang over this conversation. "Because they believe if you believe in him he will be alive in your heart and you will be saved," I said.
"Right!" Dan was excited. "Now, why don't they get all dressed up and come and talk to us about Abraham Lincoln?"
The image was so bizarre that I didn't even hazard an answer.
"It's because Abraham Lincoln is dead. But, now, Jesus is dead, too. But he can come alive if you bring him into your heart. That's what they always say. Here's the question: Why can't Abraham Lincoln come alive if you bring him into your heart?"
I felt like a contestant on a surreal quiz show. "I don't know."
Dan was triumphant. "It's because Abraham Lincoln was part of white man history."
"And Jesus wasn't?"
"Don't you see? If it was important that an earthquake happened when Jesus died, then why wasn't it important that a lot of stars fell in the year the buffalo froze?"
A far-off blast of lightning lit the edges of the billowing clouds. "I'll tell you why. Because white people wouldn't believe the two things had anything to do with each other. You believed that Jesus and the earthquake had something to do with each other, but you didn't believe that the buffalo and the stars had anything to do with each other. An earthquake could happen because Jesus died. But the stars couldn't fall because the buffalo died.
"We are not memories to be lost, like wind in the grass. What I am about to say to you are hard words. But I choose to say them, because this is hard land, and it invites hard words. Hear me. Then I will be quiet for a while."
He squared himself in his seat and began.
"There is no Indian alive who dares to think too much on the past. If we looked too long at the past we would be too angry to live. You try to make it up to us by making us into heroes and wise people in all your movies and books. That's fine for you. But I can still go to a museum and see my grandmother's skull in a case and hear someone talk about it as an artifact.
"Would you want your grandmother's skull to be in a case in my house? Would you be angry then?"
He cast his gaze out onto the shadowy formations. His bad eye glowed like an ember.
"And sometimes I think about all the wars between our people and your people. Those white men that fought us were men without any families, lots of them. They were young men out in the West making money. Some of them were convicts. Some of them were still blood drunk from the Civil War.
"They weren't your best people. Many of them were brutal and stupid. They did terrible things because it was fun. Not all of them, but they were soldiers and it was their job to kill people.
"My people never had a chance. We were families. We were in our homes, with our old people and our babies. And the soldiers attacked us. They attacked our homes and killed our elders and our children.
"The government sent men who didn't have anything or didn't fit anywhere, and gave them guns and put them on horses and told them to go out and attack the villages where we had our women and our old people and our little babies. There were little girls playing with dolls and little boys who were just learning to walk. The soldiers killed them all.
He emitted a harsh and bitter laugh. "This is why I shouldn't think about these things. Because, you know, I don't blame my people who ambushed the white soldiers or even raided the homes of the settlers. I don't say it was right. I just say I understand. We lost everything. Your government sent heartless, greedy men to keep us under control and they lied and raped and stole from us and they could kill us for any reason and it was okay."
He stared me down, an old man, bearing eighty years of pain, speaking his mind to one of the race that had almost destroyed his people. This was personal now. He wanted me to feel his pain and he wanted to see my shame.
"What if someone raped your little sister?" he said. "That happened all the time."
"What if someone took your wife and slit open her belly and pulled out your unborn child, then laid it on the ground like a trophy still attached to her dead mother? That happened, too.
"See, we weren't even people. Did you know that? The Catholic Church even held a conference to determine if we were people or not. In their great wise religion they thought they should decide if we were people or animals. That's the way we were thought of and treated. It was okay to do anything to us."
Perspiration had formed on his upper lip. He took a dirty rag from his pocket and swabbed his face. His expression was as dark as the land outside; his eyes as hollow as the moon.
"I think this is hard for you to understand. But our old people were our best people. Nowadays, the world is all for the young people. It wasn't that way for us. We were taught that the old people and the babies were the closest to God and it was for them that we all lived. They were the most helpless and they needed us the most. And your people came in and killed them. We couldn’t protect them and that was what we had to do. But you were too strong. There were too many of you. We had to do what we could to protect our old people and our families and we couldn’t because your soldiers broke into our homes and killed them when they couldn’t get away.” (pp. 294-95)